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Monday, June 25, 2012

Nunca dejen de sonar...

Yo pienso que puede alguien quitarte el sueno pero nunca podran quitar las ganas de  seguir sonando!
En muchos momentos de la vida, pareciera que nada tuviese sentido y que sin importar lo mucho que intentemos hacer bien las cosas todo sale mal. Cuando era pequena queria ser una maestra luego una modelo y ahora lo mas que me gusta es escribir y bailar.Hoy tengo dos hijos y se que modelar ya no puedo por que para ami es mas importante estar serca de mis hijos pero tengo ganas de luchar y ser una escritora y bailarina.como dije las cosas no son faciles pero como puede uno saber si puede ser lo que suena uno si no trata?Yo pienso si alquien tiene un gran sueno lo puede consequir con tal que tenga esa ilusion y esperanza.Yo sueno pienso me imaguino bailando en esas peliculas de baile la mujer siendo yo me late el corazon de alegria de pensar que pueda ser yo esa un dia y ser una famosa escritora y que me paguen por escribir y que la guente le encante lo que escribo.Como la guente sea kuien sea puede criticar y quitarte el deresho de sequir tu sueno no se den por vensidos la vida es my bonita y corta para que vivas tu vida confundida en los pensamientos de otra guente.Como ven apollo es lo que uno busca y aveses uno no lo tiene pero eso es la vida.Uno no puede esperar que las cosas vengan a nosotros tenemos que lushar por ellas con toda tu fuerza buscar aquello que nos hace feliz.Yo por ahora sueno pero ya mas adelante voy a luchar con todas mis fuerzas haver lo que amo. Nunca abandonen sus suenos mientras crean que puedes lograr sus metas inténtenlo una y otra vez, que nadie los detenga, cierren sus manos y agarraen todos esos sueños y no lo suelten, ponganlo en su pecho como si fuese una joya valiosa, y guárdenla en sú corazón, porque sus sueños sí son valiosos. nunca sientan que han perdido por que algo no salio bien la primera vez, siempre hay que volver a intentarlo, se puede ser muy inteligente pero si no tienen pasiensia para hacer las cosas, nunca lo van a lograr.Comienza cada dia como si fuese el primero del resto de tu vida con esperaanza,alegria,para que asi te puedas sentir contentos por que estan haciendo lo mejor posible.No dejen que nadie robe esa alegria que llevan dentro  tienen el deresho de tener muchas ilusiones y muchos suenos no los desperdicies en guente que no vale la pena.Es mejor mirar los dias que llegan como una oportunidad nueva.Siéntanse feliz con quien son, tienen la capacidad de aprender de sus errores, no dejen que los malos sentimientos como el orgullo empañen tu bello corazón. Tampoco te pongas triste por aquellos que no quieren que te sientas bien, no valen la pena, una persona que te ama de verdad, te acompañará a soñar y volará contigo tan alto como puedas, no te soltará y allí sabrás cual es tu verdadero amor, será aquel que te apoya en tus planes y en tus deseos. Cuida a esa persona, lo demás no le de mente.Alejate de la guente que no te apollan por que si tu lo dejas sabes que te pueden quitar todo menos las ganas de sonar y siempre mi guente ai un manana mejor para ustedes.
Agan de sus vidas un sueno y de ese sueno mi guente una rialidad!Nunca dejen de sonar ni de ser tu mismo por los demas.Sonar es gratis recuerden eso :)


Frases que te dejan con el persamiento...


-Puede la alegria de los demas contagiar a otros
-Hay que tener un buen presente para en el futuro tener  un bonito pasado
-Decir la verdad puede ser cualquiera pero para mentir hay que tener imaguinacion
-Te amo no solo por lo que eres si no por lo que soy cuando estoy contigo
-Creer en el destino es tener miedo a cambiar el futuro
-Dishoso aquel que puede dar sin recordar y recibir sin olvidar
-Si no puedes convenserlos confundelos
-Se necesita un minuto para que te figues en el una hora para que te agrade un dia para quererlo pero se nesesita una vida para poder olvidarlo :(
-Puedes que pienses que no eres nada paro el mundo pero seguro que eres un mundo para alquien
-No mas sabio aquel que sabe munchas cosas si no aquel que hace  muncho con lo poco que sabe
-Di siempre lo que piensas y piensa antes de decir
-Rie cuando estes triste por que llorar es demaciado facil
- Si estas triste sonrie por que mas vale una sonrisa triste que la tristeza de no verte sonreir :(
-No pienses que te amo por que enrialidad te amo mas de lo  que piensas
-Los errores no se niegan se asumen los pecados no se juzgan se perdonan la tristeza no se llora se supera y el amor no se grita se demuestra
-Te amo por encima de todo no podemos ver por encima de lo que tenemos que conocer
Estas son algunas de mis frases favoritas que me dejan pensando que les alla gustado igual que ami :)

Consejos para todos...

- Verdad- di la verdad a otros y ati mismo ya que es bueno para una salud mental
- Metas- es bueno tener ilusiones y metas positivas ya que ayuda a que la mente este sanamente ocupada.
-Perdon- el perdon libera de sentimientos negativos trae paz al corazon y genera a ti alegria perdonar te trae a triunfar  sobre tus propias debilidades.
-Servicio- servir y ayudar alos demas me ensena que da muncha felizidad uno puede dar lo que tenga tiempo,dinero,compania,es mas feliz el que mas da como dice el disho 'El que no vive para servir no sirve para vivir".
-Escuchar- escucha pero realmente eschucha sin interumpir, botezar o criticar.
-Carino- ser generoso con besos, abrazos,apretones de manos hacer estas pequenas acsiones demuestran muncho.
-Paciencia- ai que  ser paciente no pretendas que todo te llegue de imediato.
-Olvidar- no seas esclavo del pasado y los recuerdos tristez  no revuelvas una herida que esta cicatrizada no recuerdes dolores y sufrimientos antiguos como dice Daddy yankee "lo que paso paso"
-Hacia delante- camina hacia delante no mires atras haz como el sol que sale cada dia sin acordase de la noche anterior.
-No culpes otros- no culpes por lo que tu has echo mas bien cambia por que solo tu ers responsable por tu propia vida.
-Vida- piensa que dios te ah dado una vida por que el sabe que puedes con ella.
-Alegria- se alegre por que la alegria contagia i vive para quitar tristezas de todos los que te rodean la alegria es un rayo de luz que debe de pertenecer siempre encendida.
Ohala esto pueda ayudar algunas personas a reflexionar a cambiar su vida :)

Friday, June 1, 2012

The girl in the mirror....

Theres this girl in the mirror i look and wonder who she is. I wonder do i know her? There is a untold story in her eyes, when she is looking back at me i can see wat she feels inside. Its colder now and some type of sadness consumes me, never underestimate the pain of a person the truth is everyone feels it some how yet some people hide it better then others many choose to show some emotions not all.The girl in the mirror smiles and yet  theirs tears left un dried and she has so much to say she keeps it bottled up inside. Theres nothing more depressing than having it all and still feel sad. She says im tired of being nice to people who can careless about me. she thought who would care if one day i wasn't there.she go on day by day and act like everything is OK but has life goes on it hurts more in ever way she said.she cant hide no matter how hard she tries all her friends know why she cant sleep at night.she wants to scream to people only because my eyes dont tear dont mean my heart dont cry and just because i act strong dont mean nothings wrong.If you look past this words you'll know the girl in the mirror is really me! Heres a qoute to understand me!
"Do you know wats like to be me?Go through something not everyone can see?
Do you know Wat's it like to walk in my shoes?Please stop judging me simply cause im not you!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Not perfect....

I open my eyes I try to see Wat people see when they see me but I'm blinded by a white light. The light that torments me with thoughts and i cant stand to feel this  pain and i cant make it go away.I'm tired of being what people want me to be.My life  goes on as i feel like  I’m fading away
I'm sick of this and i wonder why does this happen to me?I feel like i do so much for people  why don't they show they care?
Feeling so faithless towards me don't know Wat they expect of me. I just been put in to aloot of pressure !!!Every step that i take is like another mistake i do.
 I want my feelings to become numb.
I'm so tired all i want to do is be me and less wat im expected to be.I try to scream out im not perfect but no one hears me.And to think people think im wasting my time doing things i want to do because all they do is disapprove.It is hard enough to deal with life so all i can do is hold on to the  happy times.  But i just wish people can just be proud of me.The worst thing i feel is changing because of other people told you too.If people tried to see the reall me they wouldn't want me to change i have a smile that'll brighten up a room a great personality  people envy  im full of life with goals.For today and on i'll just keep wearing my mask of lies that always smiles to hide my true feelings.I designed my mask to also be laughing behind my smiles their are tears and behind most comforts their are fears.Everything is never sometimes wat it seems wat can hide underneath you cant begin to imagine. But for today i at least found someone to erase me fears and that special person who wipe my tears.Remember this "Nobody deserves your tears but whoever deserves them will not make you cry".



Living in Fear!

I lay on my bed thinking and i soak my pillow in tears I wanna know exactly Wat do i fear?Is it the mistakes that i made or the fact that i cant bring back the past.I think how no matter wat situation i go through life still goes on and on and years go by while time fades away how tomorrow comes and the again it goes.what is it that I'm afraid? of feelings inside me that wont let me be happy at times  an empty spot i want to fill just don't know how.Is it every day routine or people who continue to hurt me i realize now nothing is fair my thoughts have only gotten more complicated.What are me eyes so scared? maybe the hope that i have that always seems to die in me trying to get over this endless fear.Memories maybe that haunt me can it be that the thing i fear most is the thing i cant be? The person everyone expects me to be so strong and yet so sensitive and weak yet my ambition to become something more  grows and grows around the corner yet  seems like miles away.I think the thing i fear the most its me....

Monday, May 21, 2012

No heart beat...

I never new how it felt to loose something you wanted so bad life always gives new lessons and well i was never prepared to wat i went threw few weeks ago on april 2012.I cant imagine how people can feel loveing a person one minute and looseing them the next after so many memories although my story were only for 9 weeks i loved this baby oh so much from the very start if love could have saved my baby it would have never died . I had a miscarriage although it wasnt like most and cant be explained The causes of miscarriage are not well understood. Most of the miscarriages that occur in the first trimester are caused by chromosomal abnormalitiesin the fertilized egg. Most often, this means that the egg or sperm had the wrong number of chromosomes and as a result, the fertilized egg can't develop normally.

Sometimes a miscarriage is caused by problems that occur during the delicate process of early development. This would include an egg that doesn't implant properly in the uterus or an embryo with structural defects that prevent it from developing so the doctors say it can be millions of reasons if you come to think about it was it stress, was i eating enough ect....but in da end all i can think of was why me.I decided to write my story has a comfort to other women who went through the same pain has me.
I got pregnant in march and i found out by the end of that month it was 5 years since i have had another baby yes i have 2 adorable kids 2 boys.But knowing i was pregnant after so long brought me so much joy i teared when i seen that test posetive.Every day i wake up knowing i had a life inside me and another child to care for. In da start everything was going good although i always stress thinking that theirs something wrong with my baby just cause i had not heard its heart beat yet or seen a doctor so one day i was haveing cramps decided to go to the e.r and they told me no worries everything is fine. A week later i was pukeing aloot none stop that week i lost a few pounds couldnt even keep down liquids i went again to the e.r the put me on a i.v i was dyhydrated and they prescribed me pills for no pukeing it helped some days other days i would be the same weeks past i felt like i couldnt do anything i did things so slow i felt like the world was falling on top of me and these cramps but the hospital would always say it was normal. I changed doctor and i didnt make an appt till i was 9 weeks the doctor i changed to was  very buzy when i finally had my appt with him i was nervous also because i had this weird spotting but though nothing of it if i had 2 healthy boys.The doctor called me in and was doing an ultrsound on me and i seen my baby and i seen him searching and searching and he tells me somethings wrong when i heard those words i new then wat hed say next was bad my heart raced i could feel it almost tryna get out of my chest and i teared but when he told me no heart beat i asked wat do you mean he says your baby died. That day i came out of my house happy wanteing to hear and see my baby thinking it was healthy but the news i got was not even close it had stop growing and their was no heart beat. Although iam and still trying to deal with it im devastated how this happened to me i went the next day to do another ultrasound and still nothing that weekend i had a dnc done but i still sit on my bathroom tub and cry for that lost baby i wish i had it in my belly its sad to not knoe when someoone u love is leaving and you couldnt say goodbye like my baby it was gone before i knew it in life i love it dearly in death ill love it still
my heart is broken but it was gods choice.For all the women who can relate to this story im sorry
  my condolences to you please read this poem it may help you like it did to me.                                     I thought of you and closed my eyes,
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother,
And I know I heard him say:
A mother has a baby,
This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a mother,
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied,
With confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies,
When they leave is not thier choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But theres no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile,
With other children who say:
We go to earth and learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much,
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are Ok.
Your babies are here in My home,
They'll be at heavens gate for you.
So now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day,
And you'll know that you're the best one!
R.I.P my dear angel....