"My confession"

           This is dedicated to a person that i would  do anything for that i love with all my heart.I can explain to you how much i love you like id do anything for you id  throw my hand on a blade for you jump in front of a train for you and i would go through all this pain because i love you!I cant tell you how my heart breaks when i see a frown on your face and i would stop the time and go back  to a time when u just had a smile on your face because all i want is to see you happy.I feel like their has been a change in our great friendship and even at times i feel like you hate me when all i actually want is your love.Ill never forget when we were Small you would Feed me dress me while my mom was working and when i grew up you'd act has if you were my actual mother. It hurts when i try to talk to you like before its like I'm screaming and you still don't hear me I'm hanging of a thread  slipping off the edge i wanna just start over again so i hold on in my heart those childhood memories you use to guide me when i was lost now i feel like all you do is at time push me away has if i didn't matter to you any more and i try not to think of this pain i feel inside don't you know you always been my hero.I'm happy and i have everything i always wished but how can i be happy if i cant share my joy with you.All i want is you to be that sister the one who would always be their for me the one who would protect me from the world who would make me see the day when i was i the dark and know I'm writing this and I'm crying because i love you with all my heart and to feel how Am feeling to be in a way disappointed in you and hurt by you is really killing me inside i wish i can turn back time.I'm hurt because you think I'm selfish or a hypocrite but the truth is i am Wat i am i have my defects and may say the wrong things but not really mean it  i know you know me more than anyone so why judge my feeling instead ask me why do i feel this Way and ill explain and please try to understand in only human i have a sensitive heart but only you can hurt me so easily.May b i feel this way because i expect more from you because I'm willing to so so much for you and i expect that same from you!We fought, we make up. We laughed at jokes that no one can understand. We said some of the meanest things to each other. We defended each other. We did some of the silliest things together and there's so many stories to be remembered when we are together.You helped me up allot of times i was down thank you and

Through some of the harshest times, we became attached to one another. Yet through it all, the coldness we eventually melt away and have this great bond.How can i explain i miss you and i want things to be the same no lies,no secrets just plain truth without me or you judging each other.I just want to say sorry if i ever hurt you sorry if im not a perfect sister.It hurts when you don't motivate me anymore like before because all i want is for you to be proud of me.I know your going through a tough time but their are miracles in life look inside you and god will direct you to happiness. Even if you are the way you are ill always love you no doubt  your eyes makes the stars look like they are not shining your hair is fall perfectly without you trying your a great person and when i see your  theirs nothing i wouldn't change cause when you want to be your  an amazing person and When it seems like there's no one left to run to in this empty world you can come to me I'll be your shooting star. You can tell me your dreams I can't promise to make them come true, but I'll be there to pick up the pieces of your broken heart if your dreams happen to fall through.

P.S I want you to know your one of the best things that god gave me in life my angel i love you!

From my heart to you

"My sister"