Why does life gets hard at some points? It comes to a point where you think will it ever change will it get easier?It comes to a point where you sit down and think wtf happened to me? Start to say where's my faith? Where's God when I need him the most! Is he helping someone else way more important than me? Last time I checked he was the one who gave me this beautiful life! You start to think then you start to cry because you are so lost in so many emotions.. You start to believe in what other ppl told you! You start to loose faith and who you were! And you try to find yourself again so things could get better again but it takes forever because your so scared out of the experience you been though you don't want to hurt anymore or be a disappointment to your self or others! You don't want to feel broken or like your nothing! You want to be saved but you know that you need save yourself first! But your blank headed dk what to do! So you sit their crying because your so lost! Makes you think of the past and all the ppl close to you hurt you then you think how much they ment to you but in a way the never cared for you! Then at that point you want to fall n break even more! Life been a struggle for me since I was young so you just get use to the hard times act like everything's ok n remind yourself your use to it n walk around with a fake smile I'm tired pretending that everything is alright im tired of feeling lost of giving up so you try one more time this story called life but when you least expect it you fall apart and you end up saying "why did I even try!"
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