If tomorrow never comes...

Sometimes at night i lie awake i watch my kids and husband sleep their lost in these peaceful dreams. I shut off the lights  and lay in the dark and i think till it hurts, i think what if i never wake up in the morning would the people i most love doubt how much i loved them? If tomorrow never comes will my kids and husband my mom and sis know how much i loved them and how i tryed in every way to  show them my love?If time on earth were through and they must face it without me ill promise to always protect my loved once.But for now on just in case tomorrow never comes I'll let my loved once now how much they mean to me avoid arguing their isn't a second chances so why not live my life happy and make my loved once smile.For my two angels : Cristian,Danny if tomorrow never comes i want you to know you both are very special from the start i held both of you in my arms i love you both with all my heart you both are the greatest blessings i couldn't love you both more for the little boys that you are the special little mans you are now and the precious sons you will always be and know you will always remain in my heart. For my husband : If tomorrow never comes i want you yo know i see you work hard and I'm proud of you through our up and downs i love you just the way you are i have stand beside you through these years ans Ive cryed but most of them were happy tears.Before i met you i was in the darkness i was shut in this dark world you appeared in my life changed my world form night to light  you showed me love protection aim thankful that god sent you to me you hold my heart in your hands I'm glad i took this wonderful journey with you in the end we found each other  no matter what ill always love you.For my Mother i shed tears that your still here by my side and i smile because you are there for me no matter Wat thank you for bringing me to this world and teaching me things because of you aim here today i want you to know that i love you even though i may not show it all the time and even if my childhood wasn't the best i know people make mistakes and you tryed your best to give me your all and if tomorrow never comes i want you to know i love you mom.For my sister where do i start we have laughed.cried, fought  we shared so many memories i always looked up to you and still do your the best sister anyone could wish to have i just want to see you happy and if tomorrow never comes i want you to know their wasn't a day you weren't on my mind or your kids you ll always be my angel.If tomorrow never comes i just want to tell you all you've made my life meaningful and i enjoyed every second i spend with each of you from the bottom of my heart I love you all.

LLegaste tu...

Yo estaba hundida ahogada en la soledad mi corazon lloraba de un vacio total.Intente todo y todavia mi corazon estaba triste todo lo intenete para ser feliz pero nada funsiono.Derepente un dia llegaste tu y todo cambio yo volvi a nacer. Tu llenaste el vacio que tenia mi corazon eras tu mi nesesidad y mi solucion.Desde ese entonces yo quiese saber todo de tu vida queria saber de tus dias.Me siento y pienso como tu sin saber cambiaste toda mi vida.Lo que es sierto es que tengo una sed de amarte y me hace tan feliz yo quiero amanecer siempre contigo en tus brazos.Quiero que me beses como si el mundo se acabara despues sin razon sin compasion.Yo solo quiero que te quedes conmigo sin condision.Como explicarte este amor que eh sentido desde que llegaste a mi vida yo quisiera ser enquien piensas noche y dia quisiera ser la luz que alumbre tu mirada ,quisiera ser el aire cuando respiras cuando te rias yo hacer tu alegria.Tu estas en mi mente las 24 horas.Te pido perdon si pido mas de lo que me puedes dar si grito cuando debo calllar.Lo que es sierto es que si hai alquien que amo es a ti.

As long as you love me....

When I'm alone in my living room i stare at the wall and in the back of me mind I hear my conscience call telling me Can this be true?Can this be real? How can i show him how i feel?Wow never thought that love can feel like this and how he changes my world with just one kiss.I even think god must of spent a little more time on him because hes amazing.I don't want to go another day without telling him exactly how i feel.I see couples breaking up throwing their love away but i know i got a good thing right now him this is why i say nobody going to love me better im sticking with him forever.He's got something that i just cant get enough of he keeps me wanting more and more.I tell him for his loving ima die hard like Bruce Willis lol!Its not that i can live without him it's just that i don't even want to try. He has the power to make me weak inside and without him i would be incomplete.I just want to say the right words and be his dream girl so i can always find my way in to his heart.When i first met him my life turned a page chapter one was how true love was made he taught me romance we both were and still are writing a book of our love.My heart was searching for a home and guess wat it finally found one.Love showed up at my life that summer day and when i first saw him i already new their was something different about him something i thought that id never find.I keep thinking how he changed my world and helped me grow and when i almost lost all hope when i use to think that i could not go on and life was nothing but an awful song but he showed me true love actually existed .I can remember each memory with him has if it were new.When I close my eyes i feel like I'm lost in this fairytale because he's like a beautiful nightmare. I mention him when I say my prayers i wrap him around my thoughts.Hes like my temporary high. When i think about it i was the one that said i loved you first it was a few years ago we were laying in his moms living room cause we couldn't be alone lol even his mom new i was sumting else she new how i felt.Back then we were young and in school how i miss those days but its OK because we are making better memories now.If i had a bottle with a genie in it id wish our love to never end for it just to always begin this feeling i feel are so deep sometimes i feel like their made believe.But if i ever loose you i swear i wouldn't know Wat to do ill probably check myself in a clinic cause without him I'm sick.I only think about the date,the time.the seconds we met. Its crazy how everything reminds me of him poems,songs,places.He asks me all the time if through the years i see him the same way cause we both physically change ,I tell him don't you know you'll always be the cutest guy ever so let me reassure you baby my feeling are unconditional. I will love him even when his hair turns grey ill still love him if he gains a little weight.I'm not impressed more or less by them boys on TV or magazines honestly i believe everyhting about him makes me feel like i have the greatest gift in the world. I couldn't see my self with any other person.I want him to know that he don't have to worry about anything cause his all i want and need.The way i feel will always remain the same just as long as his love don't change!

Has your relationship changed from OMFG to WTF here's some advise part 2?

I have talked about a few tips on how to light up that candle in your relationship in part 1 hope it helps. I can truly say if a guy or a girl is in a relationship where they find themselves tryna make things work and it doesn't well the best thing is to separate. If he or she wont put any effort then it ain't worth it and i know for some couples its hard because its been years of being with the same person your use to the routine and to split up its like the end of the world.Fact is some couples are not made for each other they are together for other reason but none of them are love.Also in all relationships theirs arguments we say things we didn't mean so don't be ashamed of that is part of life we all disagree with people just like with our couple. but make sure you apologize if needed.Every relationship always looks for the same thing someone ,who they can talk to someone ,to share their secrets late at night when they cant sleep someone, someone, to feel comfortable with someone, they can hug when their scared someone, they can feel that they love them without them saying it.Guys you have to make the girl feel like shes the only girl in the world.Lady's treat your man with love and affection because their like little boys who want all your attention.I can say cheating is a wrong way of going about your problems with your couple.I understand that their is always temptation  that attraction towards someone else but really are you going to destroy the relationship you build for years months weeks for a few minutes of pleasure? but if it gets to the point where you want to be with someone else break up.Their is no perfect relationship its like stories movies they don't have a clear start or end you need to know how to change the situation and make the best of it.Always talk speak to one another tell them what you like  about them Wat you dislike about them and you'll have a happy relationship.A relationship full of love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, wont lost  it, its a wildly misunderstood feeling although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain!! I wish every couple good luck and hope your both happy!!

Dear God,

I hate to bother you God,but I just want you to hear me out!Everyday i go out see that the worlds is getting crazier.I prey but i wont deny at times i just want to give up on everything till you light up my way and show me the road you made for me to live.God your like a mirror to me. The mirror never changes, but everybody who looks at it sees something different.I get sad because i feel like people take your words and they try to twist them around and the worst part is some of those people are the religious ones who say they speak for you or in your name.I even hear some people saying "Whats the use in believing in god anyways" and it breaks my heart although I'm sorry i may have said that once when i was lost and couldn't or didn't want to see the light.If people can only see problems are every where some have it worst then others but the only person that can help anyone is you our God and you know what we all go threw you see when we are happy and sad but yet us has humans never ask for your help wich you can just make our pain heal has fast has a blink of an eye.It feel like people are searching for a easy solution towards their life  but they cant see beyond their selfish ways.I ask of you lord to make me stronger not because I'm weak just because i know I'm human and i need a little push at times to not fall and keep my head up. I can say we do get confused on the message you send out to us sometimes.I do believe you will one day speak to me or send me a signal when i most need it.I know you may be disappointed in things i may have done and i know that i run away from the truth at times. I'm just looking for some answers but cant seem to find them. All i ask from you is to help me out.I hope you hear me out every time i prey.