Dear God,

I hate to bother you God,but I just want you to hear me out!Everyday i go out see that the worlds is getting crazier.I prey but i wont deny at times i just want to give up on everything till you light up my way and show me the road you made for me to live.God your like a mirror to me. The mirror never changes, but everybody who looks at it sees something different.I get sad because i feel like people take your words and they try to twist them around and the worst part is some of those people are the religious ones who say they speak for you or in your name.I even hear some people saying "Whats the use in believing in god anyways" and it breaks my heart although I'm sorry i may have said that once when i was lost and couldn't or didn't want to see the light.If people can only see problems are every where some have it worst then others but the only person that can help anyone is you our God and you know what we all go threw you see when we are happy and sad but yet us has humans never ask for your help wich you can just make our pain heal has fast has a blink of an eye.It feel like people are searching for a easy solution towards their life  but they cant see beyond their selfish ways.I ask of you lord to make me stronger not because I'm weak just because i know I'm human and i need a little push at times to not fall and keep my head up. I can say we do get confused on the message you send out to us sometimes.I do believe you will one day speak to me or send me a signal when i most need it.I know you may be disappointed in things i may have done and i know that i run away from the truth at times. I'm just looking for some answers but cant seem to find them. All i ask from you is to help me out.I hope you hear me out every time i prey.

Munchos le llaman 'Mi Novela" yo le llamo "Mis Sentimientos"!

Todo cambio cuando te vi y fue tan facil querete tanto.Todos los dias pienso en ese dia en que te conosi fue como un sueno divino que se iso posible y ahora vivo enamorada y loca por ti!!
Yo nunca pense que algun dia me enamoraria tanto que sin tu amor no viviria pero la vida me a demostrado que las cosas buenas llegan en cualquier momento y nunca pense que iva conoser este sentimiento. Lo siento aki en mi pecho y me corre por mis venas me llerbe la sangre. Nuestro amor es como una novela o una historia de adas ya contada donde yo soy julieta y el mi romeo.Cada manana me levanto pensando en todas las cosas lindas que hemos pasado quiero estar siempre a tu lado y te confieso eres todo lo que pedia lo que mi alma vacia queria lo que por tanto yo esperaba.Ya no tengo corazon ni ojos para nadie solo para ti eres el amor de mi vida y hoy que pienso en el pasado es que entiendo que a tu lado siempre pertenesi.Tu has llegado a encender cada parte de mi  eres el motivo y la ilusion de mi existir eres mi locura y pongo en tus manos mi destino pork vivo solo para siempre estare contigo!Yo estoy segura que pueden pensar que estoy loca y es verdad un poco pero de amor eres ese delincuente que me tiene de mente.Nunca me eh sentido tan amada por alquien pero tu me has ensenado lo que es amar y ser amado.Aver si ahora puedes entender que cuando me tocas me quemas mi piel aver si puedes entender que yo doy todo por ti pork es que cuando yo desido amar es hasta el fin entiende que yo desde siempre soy de ti.Quiero que sepas que nadie te va amar como yo, soy sincera cuando te lo digo nadie te conose mejor que yo tus gustos como darte un beso como y cuando hacerte las cosas para alquien emamorarte tendrian que preguntarme como te conquiste y anotar mis truquitos en papel o volver a nacer para aver si en otra vida te enamorarias otraves  por que yo soy duena de tu corazon.Lo unico que te pido es que siempre me ames como yo te amo a ti nunca kuiero que me digas que lo nuestro termino que ya no encuentras una conexion y que me reclames que estas harto de todo y k en nuestra relacion nunca ubo pas y si pasara te digo que mi corazon no aguantaria y va dejar de palpitar y ai es cuando enpesare a preocuparme y te dire mirame a los ojos dime que es sierto que todavia me amas? por que nunca quiero que nuestro amor se acabe por que este amor de tantos anos no puede morir tan facil  nuestra historia a un fin nunca puede llagar!Y si algun dia pasara tuviera que esplicarle a mi corazon que ya tu no vas a estar y finjir para k no se destrose mas,te amo tanto que sin ti ni pudiera vivir por que lo unico que aria es pensar en ti y mi corazon da gritos siempre llamandote y sin ti mi corazon solo sentiria dolor.Te quiero decir que se que no soy facil de soportar pero tu me amas como soy y te pido perdon si me aloco aveses pero te amo por tu aceptarme tal y como soy.En mi vida eres un milagro contigo no ay un dia gris o noches frias antes de dormir.Contigo yo soy mas que yo por que al quererte queria hacer mejor y tu amor me da la fuerza y me alsa.Todavia pudiera decirte mil cosas pero lo mas importante es que 'TE AMO'! Es increible este amor tan bello lleno de alegria que aveses creo que me lo invento pero por que te conosi como nina y ahora soy tu mujer y siempre lo sere!!!03-06-10

"My confession"

           This is dedicated to a person that i would  do anything for that i love with all my heart.I can explain to you how much i love you like id do anything for you id  throw my hand on a blade for you jump in front of a train for you and i would go through all this pain because i love you!I cant tell you how my heart breaks when i see a frown on your face and i would stop the time and go back  to a time when u just had a smile on your face because all i want is to see you happy.I feel like their has been a change in our great friendship and even at times i feel like you hate me when all i actually want is your love.Ill never forget when we were Small you would Feed me dress me while my mom was working and when i grew up you'd act has if you were my actual mother. It hurts when i try to talk to you like before its like I'm screaming and you still don't hear me I'm hanging of a thread  slipping off the edge i wanna just start over again so i hold on in my heart those childhood memories you use to guide me when i was lost now i feel like all you do is at time push me away has if i didn't matter to you any more and i try not to think of this pain i feel inside don't you know you always been my hero.I'm happy and i have everything i always wished but how can i be happy if i cant share my joy with you.All i want is you to be that sister the one who would always be their for me the one who would protect me from the world who would make me see the day when i was i the dark and know I'm writing this and I'm crying because i love you with all my heart and to feel how Am feeling to be in a way disappointed in you and hurt by you is really killing me inside i wish i can turn back time.I'm hurt because you think I'm selfish or a hypocrite but the truth is i am Wat i am i have my defects and may say the wrong things but not really mean it  i know you know me more than anyone so why judge my feeling instead ask me why do i feel this Way and ill explain and please try to understand in only human i have a sensitive heart but only you can hurt me so easily.May b i feel this way because i expect more from you because I'm willing to so so much for you and i expect that same from you!We fought, we make up. We laughed at jokes that no one can understand. We said some of the meanest things to each other. We defended each other. We did some of the silliest things together and there's so many stories to be remembered when we are together.You helped me up allot of times i was down thank you and

Through some of the harshest times, we became attached to one another. Yet through it all, the coldness we eventually melt away and have this great bond.How can i explain i miss you and i want things to be the same no lies,no secrets just plain truth without me or you judging each other.I just want to say sorry if i ever hurt you sorry if im not a perfect sister.It hurts when you don't motivate me anymore like before because all i want is for you to be proud of me.I know your going through a tough time but their are miracles in life look inside you and god will direct you to happiness. Even if you are the way you are ill always love you no doubt  your eyes makes the stars look like they are not shining your hair is fall perfectly without you trying your a great person and when i see your  theirs nothing i wouldn't change cause when you want to be your  an amazing person and When it seems like there's no one left to run to in this empty world you can come to me I'll be your shooting star. You can tell me your dreams I can't promise to make them come true, but I'll be there to pick up the pieces of your broken heart if your dreams happen to fall through.

P.S I want you to know your one of the best things that god gave me in life my angel i love you!

From my heart to you

"My sister"

Has your relationship changed from OMFG to WTF here's some advise?

In the start of the relationship those breathless weeks and months having fun and being interested in each other is not a problem.But many longer term couples rate their relationship from 1-10 many would say 5-6
Did they fall out of love? Lose their attraction? Nope they simply get confortable  and subconsciously default like whatever works, But theirs working to do try these ideas!! Ladies always dress up fix your self for your man/husband so when he gets home from work or if you are going out you leave him with a OMG expression ,always spoil him make him his favorite food, take baths together ,have allot of alone time and most important communication is key, always let him know if you loved what he bought you for your b-day or Christmas or Wat you dislike that he does.Guys women like to be told they are pretty no matter if they just woke up and they look like they just came out of a insane home! Take her out to dinner let her know you enjoy every minute with her, let her know you love her thank her for the sweet things she does even if they r the smallest things shell appreciate it.Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take.A relationship is like a rose. How long it lasts, no one knows but you have the power to make it work. Problems in relationship occur because each person is concentrating on what is missing in the other person and it shouldn't be that way then it ll never work out.When we initially fall in love, we feel we have found “the perfect person.” A tremendous excitement takes over. We project many wonderful qualities upon our partner and block out any faults. Then we feel that we, too, must be so wonderful to have a partner who is so ideal. For many there is the feeling that they have finally discovered someone who will be able to give them all the love, approval and inspiration they have sought all their lives.
We are meant to live a life of love. However, no matter how successful some are in other aspects of their lives, they wonder if it’s possible to have the same success in love. Although things may start out wonderfully in the beginning, there is always the fear that it won’t last, that difficulties will arise, feelings will start to change. Then when things alter, as they naturally must, many have the mistaken idea that the love is disappearing. . They wonder what went wrong.
Nothing went wrong. Change is natural and inevitable. It does not mean that the love has gone away. That is a mistaken idea of what love is. We simply have to know what love is, and how to keep it growing, through all the ups and down The work of love is the work of learning to accept the other person, and also to accept yourself. Love is not a feeling that stays the same all the time. Love is a verb. It grows as we face change and difficulty. Love grows through actions we take, through understanding and through developing the ability to really know who the other is and to really become their friend. A feeling that is here one minute and gone the next cannot be called love so don't confuse it. I hope these tips helped please keep reading on part 2 coming soon!!

How can love turn so evil?

I cant tell you Wat evil love maybe or domestic violence i can only tell you Wat it feels like.I seen it heard friends stories seen family destroy their relationships with physical abuse how sad. Domestic violence is a pattern behavior a man or women in which uses physical violence,threats,intimidation,emotional,economic abuse,control over partner,stalking,harassing.I will never understand how can someone say they love a person and yet hurt them its insane.Its crazy how a women or man can stay in a abusive relationship why do they stay I can honestly say because when you love someone with all your might and power then you try to put your whole heart and soul into making it work between you, hoping you will come out in the end together strong and happy. But in most cases no, it don't work, but  thankfully people manage  and no longer suffer at the hands of their abuser.Its like the Rhianna song just gonna stand there and watch me burn but that's alright because i love the way it hurts just gonna stand there and hear me cry but that's alright because i love the way you lie.I would like to say once he or she acts strange  start with sarcastic comments, silly little name calling , telling you no other person will  loved you or like you, telling you your family and which friends I had left all don't like you. Then you Will have no self confidence and  struggle to have any because when someone tells you you are ugly or stupid every day of your life it is hard to find that you are no other than that.Please leave before its to late and you may end up dead if they abuse you once its mostly certain that they'll do it again and again at times you will think wow they are  changing its going great and then they snap at any little thing  and its the same story repeating you eventually loose count of how many times you got hit. One thing i know their is no excuse for anyone to hurt a person not even if they are traumatized of their childhood past or they seen their parents fight allot ect... their is no excuse!!For all people who have gone through this kind of situation just want to say your a survivor you have strength believe in your self that you have the strength to move forward with your life you want to get in a stage where your past does not affect your everyday life you have choices don't blame yourself of the choice you made in the past praise yourself value yourself take any guilt off your shoulders start to achieve Wat you wanted to achieve in life move towards happiness.change that bad memory in your past in to hope for your feature.

What 'LIFE' means to me!!

Life is really hard to understand trust me i know.It is always the simple things that change your life and theirs these things that never happen when you are looking for them to happen.It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days  but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life work's in mysterious Ways and yet you have the chance to do something amazing from it. So grab hold of it.

I never regret anything that has happened to me in my life, whether it is making a bad choice, deciding to do something I shouldn't have, saying the wrong thing or not doing something i should have done...because all of these things have given me the knowledge i have today and helped make me who Am today... and that is one thing I will never regret. I just dont undertsand how people can see life has

 how many people you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. Life it's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone Else's in a way that you are not just satisfying yourself but someone else too. Also on a serious tip girls ya need to respect yourself first in order for ya to want guys or any one to respect you back.Females feel pretty and constantly hating on each other and people ya just need to stop being followers and be leaders if he smokes then she smokes too and if the females cloth is not tight guys wont like her seriously if you stop and Think its ridiculous!I know that god has a plan for each of us and that's why we suffer at times go through tough times so at the end we go through the path we were meant to and find happiness we meet people some we never See again some you wonder what happened to them? some you wonder if they ever think about you some you wish you never met but u did its all part of how life works and if people can see it peoples life would be allot better and they'll see things more in a positive way and yes we get let down by the people we love  and yes you'll eventually lose someone close to u  but take allot of pictures enjoy life laugh allot because every second your angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.Life has no meaning its just a journey with a destination you decide how you want it to keep going and end so please make good choices.

Is blood really thicker than water?

Is blood thicker than water this means that your "blood relatives" are more important than any other situation might occur in your life.The reason this is my title is because everyone says family is important and i agree to a certain point.I think family can be the best thing people can have and family can also be your worst nightmare.Family is always great when your small but when you start growing up making your own decisions and your mom or sister or dad don't like it then the arguments start and never end.Its funny because you'd think when your progressing in life your family will give you all the support to motivate you but the actually do the opposite.They just bring you down make you feel like shit.At this point you start questioning yourself is blood really thicker then water?I would want to think yes but the truth is the people you most love are actually the ones that always end up hurting you.In the end i think everyone needs their space and its better off to be distant.
family spend too much time finding other relatives to blame too much energy finding excuses for not being what they are capable of being, and not enough energy putting themselves on the line, growing out of the past and getting on with their issues.That's the simple truth.
I am not like that I am different... you could even call me unique. Unique because I am one of the few people who have morals and who have a heart that hates to see people suffer... I am different because when someone is down I help them up.Why can they just be grateful for haveing me in their life. I am not like them because I find no pleasure in hurting other people.For once i can truly see how my and other peoples families are.I can say now i don't care what anyone thinks of me or if they don't accept the choices i decide in life or if my hair isn't right or my shoes don't match my outfit i don't care all i care is that I'm me.. and I'm proud of my self even if no ones in my family may tell me it.For once I'm happy being where i wanted and secure and no one can take that from me or put me down. Iam who I am and people and family can take it one way or another... but at least I'm living honestly.This is how i define family at least mine but in the end their blood and you cant run away from that just deal with them and hoping to get back aloot of love! Because thats all i want!!